one-eight hundred//phan
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Dan's had depression since he was five, growing up with a broken family as well as a broken heart. He's 18, in his senior year of high school, and he's finally had enough of it. He's had enough of the bullies, he's had enough of having to transition from his mum's to his dad's every week, he's had enough of life in general. He wants to end it, but during the process, he realizes that he is in need of help. He decides to make a call to the National Suicide Prevention Hotline, in hope of clearing his mind from these thoughts as the bloodied blade on the kitchen counter taunts him to go further.
Then, a voice breaks the silence.
"Hello, you've reached the National Suicide Prevention Hotline. My name is Phil, how may I be of service today?"
Warnings: This story contains mentions of suicide, self-harm, and many other trigger-related topics. Please read with caution.
This story is inspired by '1-800-273-8255' by Logic ft. Alessia Cara & Khalid
For anyone reading this with suicidal thoughts, I want you to know that you are not alone and you can seek help and guidance. If you are in need and you live in the United States, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255.
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