The Self I Hide
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Last published Fri, Aug 9, 2019
Not long ago there was this kid whose parents went out one night for a special dinner and never came back. No one's really sure what happened but, they were both dead by morning. Since this 15-year-old couldn't live alone, the poor orphan ended up moving from the free city of Chicago to one of the most conservative cities in the entire United States, Amarillo, Texas. New school, new friends, maybe, and a new life. From the top to the bottom, literally.
If you haven't guessed already, this kid is me.
Hi, I'm Charlie Meadows. I'm 15 and I identify non-binary. I couldn't tell anyone though. Not after my parents died. They wouldn't understand the depression, or the anxiety, or the dysphoria. I'd have to manage on my own from now on.
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