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how could i stay? 
all he makes me feel is pain.
i sometimes feel as if i won't make it out alive by the end of the day.
i want his condition to change but it will always stay the same.
oh, lord -there must be some other wayAll Rights Reserved

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My only desire would be to make it through this hell. One more year would be all it takes, to set me free. Never had I struggled this hard with something, something with such force and power, dominating you every time. He did that to me, he brought that on me. Some people call it love. I say it's a sadistic enigma, made purely out of all your worst fears. _ *Warning* Includes alcohol, violence, and bad language. Mature Teen Audience recommended.

╰┈➤✮ 𝐴𝑎𝑟𝑛𝑎𝑣 × 𝑇𝑎𝑛𝑖𝑠ℎ𝑘𝑎 ❝𝑯𝒂𝒎 𝒂𝒂𝒑𝒔𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒉𝒐𝒕 𝒎𝒐𝒉𝒐𝒃𝒃𝒂𝒕 𝒌𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒊 𝑻𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒌𝒂❞ *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ How does it feel to get married with the one you love? Feels like heaven right? But what if your loved one doesn't even take you as a wife? - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "We are couples for the world but in reality we are nothing. I can never take you as my wife." Tears started coming in my eyes but I blinked the tears and whisper a "sure" and rushed to the washroom. I don't want him to see me crying. God why me? This is not how I thought my first night will go • • • • - - - - • • • • Will she be able to make him fall for her? Will he ever love her? What if she won't fit in the royal standards? Watch the book to get the answers to all the questions.

The Mask Of Pain || Funny Man/Dylan Alvarez || Hollywood Undead || Fanfic || by UndeadDexter

Dylan Alvarez better known for his stage name Funny Man, has been abused by his father all his childhood years. He hides all the pain behind a mask. a black mask. He always were's a hoodie to cover the cuts. None of his band mates or fans expect a thing. Until one does. This girl Peyton London, sees his pain behind the mask. One thing Peyton doesn't know, the cuts. They get worse everyday. Can Peyton find a way to help Dylan before it's too late?

He always assumes I want money. That money can replace my desire for a mother, for a female figure who will guide me through the darkness. All he can provide is money. He assumes that because I use the money, that I'm happy, that I don't spend night hunched over my toilet bowl physically sick to my stomach with the guilt of killing my mother. He assumes that because I have friends, that the smile on my face is genuine. That because I smile and confidently stride out of my room in a bikini, that I love myself and the way I look. He assumes everything about me, because he doesn't know me. I'm his daughter, and with the simple fact, he assumes that by just looking at me he knows my every thought. Does he know of the blood I spill when I have no other method of coping? Does he know of the times I sit and ponder about what it would be like to go through death? Does he know that when he leaves for work, I cry myself to sleep and wish for a mother? Does he know that I could care less about him? I hate him. But he loves me. Does he know, that through all this mess, I just want a mother. Because according to Disney, mother knows best?

When you are bartending, substituting for a friend and a frat boy slides you a fifty, hoping you'll spend a night with him. Instead of going completely feral which would be the most expected outcome and understandably so. You tell him your boyfriend just arrived. So you saunter your butt in tight black jeans up to a tall dark and dangerous, asking him to be your pretend boyfriend. The inked grump stares down at you but acts like he hasn't heard your request so mortified beyond belief, you are about to slink back to the bar. That's when he moves. He grasps you by the belt loop of the jeans and tugs you close and goes ahead to then then kiss the breath out of you. You are so consumed by this stranger that when you hear his companion chuckle, you pull away, embarrassment coating your cheeks red. The man let's you go and says, "he's gone." You head back to the bar and a regular, aka your bestfriend stops you and asks, "Do you have any idea who you just kissed? " ***** And that ladies and gentlemen is how I met HIM, My saviour. MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING⚠️ Violence Sexual Abuse Most of my chapters contain triggering content. Don't read if you are faint of heart.

𝐓𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐢: 𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐂𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐃𝐞𝐯𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 by author_liaa

"𝑯𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒔 𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒓𝒖𝒊𝒏" previously known as "entangled with pain" 𝐁𝐎𝐎𝐊 2 𝐈𝐍 "𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐄" 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒♡︎ "𝙁𝙤𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣 𝙬𝙝𝙤 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙫𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢𝙨𝙚𝙡𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚" I thought he married me because he loves me. All his promises, care ,love everything was just fake. He faked everything for a fuvking revenge. The revenge of the sin that I've never committed. He shattered my heart into infinite pieces yet I love him with everything I have. I am ready to burn down in his rage. If he is satisfied with giving me pain then I am ready to bear everything comes my path. I love him and this is the ultimate truth but he hates me but still he is mine. I'll love him until he drags me to death. Even when my body will get buried my soul will never forgive him but it'll never stop loving him though! He Entangled me with him? No with pain "A journey of pain"

Dylan Alvarez, also known as Funny Man, is involved in a horrific automobile accident that changed his life. He miraculously survives despite the odds and it's the start of a long road to recovery! He faces physical issues as well as post trauma stress, survivor's guilt, and emotional outbursts. When his fellow band members seem to lose patience with him as well as accept that they may never have the old Dylan back, one of them is persistent and is confident that there is still hope for Dylan, all while discovering feelings and things about himself that he didn't know he had! "Well, I know I should be moving on, but I feel like I'm already gone. Now if somebody'd hold me, save me from this broken record that's playing in my heart." - Hollywood Undead

Dead Bite (A Hollywood Undead Fan Fiction #4) by RainbowWriter8012

While on a camping trip, Jorel Decker (J-Dog), starts to establish very odd behaviors... only after the sun goes down.

The Loss || Hollywood Undead || Fanfic || The Mask Of Pain Sequel || by UndeadDexter

When you lose a person you love so much, surviving the loss is difficult. - The songs that are in the chapters, I recommend listening to them while reading :) -- Story trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4R6Qb8O9r5A

spencer, i'll remember how i'd loved you. even after i saw the hate behind your sweet eyes and messy statistics. even after i heard casually cruel words leave the same sugary lips that you used to plant soft kisses on my cheeks. even after i saw you kill right in front of me. the loss of your presence would still hurt the same. it probably wouldn't even matter what you did or didn't do because at night, i would still be crying into my pillow about everything that happened to you regardless. that's another thing that hurts so bad about this all. your loss. it's obvious, i know that. but i feel so alone. and you're actually gone this time.

Could You Love Me

My only desire would be to make it through this hell. One more year would be all it takes, to set me free. Never had I struggled this hard with something, something with such force and power, dominating you every time. He did that to me, he brought that on me. Some people call it love. I say it's a sadistic enigma, made purely out of all your worst fears. _ Warning Includes alcohol, violence, and bad language. Mature Teen Audience recommended.

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