These Are My Deepest Thoughts And Secrets Under A Microscope
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Last published Sun, Sep 16, 2018
"Whisper babe... I'm as good as it gets in this town. Whisper babe... I'm a fever you can't sweat out. These are my deepest thoughts and secrets under a microscope or under a spotlight. Forgive me if I'm not quite ready to give them to you. It's just such a different feeling... When I see you smiling and singing back to me, I'm still playing different pictures in my head that aren't so pleasant. I'm doing my best now to live in the song and not just the meaning..."
-Ryan Ross (9/28/05)
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