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Seeking SOMNUS

Mesmerising_Mani

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Reads 960
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Parts 56
Time 7h 13m

Mesmerising_Mani

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"As I lost everyone, I didn't want to go through this,
I've learned in this thick and thin that no matter what I go through I will have to put myself first, not because it's what I solemnly want but it is what I need in my rest of my journey."
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This is going to be a story based on someone's dream. Which is really beautiful to have as an experience. Please read and do share your comments and thoughts with me. You can actually vote too, there's nothing harm in that.


*Warning*
- little abusive language.




Give it a little try and enjoy the perks.

Love you all.

~maniAll Rights Reserved

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Wave (Book 2) by Anniezie

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Pieces of Me. by beautiful_wish

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