The world through the eyes of one of the insane

Kathryn L. Smith is a 16 year old girl who is in love with a man who is insane but not the same insane personality as Kathryn. She is the sadist, her lover is into her insane sadist attitude, she is a kind, caring person but she is hiding something behind her smile. See the world through her eyes, listen to her thoughts, figure out what she's hiding behind her smile.