Until my finale breath

this feeling. its back again. since I was a little kiid this feeling was there. these voices that after time became my best friend. they left me all alone it this humans, demons,creatures.
ever since I was a kid my own brother never noticed how much I was breaking. but the breaking all stopped in the finale piece of glass that is not shattered yet. but then it fall. it was so strong these couple of months, then it became tired and fall.
you are amonster
you dont disereve to live
you should have died instead
what is this creature doing here
ha I bet he doesnt even want to defeat his father
'' you are all right I knew that since I was little so you are not telling me any new news. so what is left for me in this world if there is no new news ''
who will even notice if I took my one last breath, they wont even care.
''they will just go on with thier day like you had never