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Grieving Ella

Fred_the_fearless

Reads 91
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Reads 91
Votes 7
Parts 3
Time 13m

Fred_the_fearless

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This are my thoughts. This is personal and it's me opening myself. I try to end all the chapters with positivity because that's important.

I'm extremely tired. I'm tired of having to tell my family my name is Elliot and not Ella. 
I'm tired of breathing, of existing, of being denied to be who I am. I'm so tired of trying to express myself only to have it brushed off as nothing. But more importantly I'm tired of being depressed. 
But I'm getting better at being myself. At accepting myself and presenting myself to others as Elliot. I just need to face my fears, and my family and I'm sure one day everything will be just fine. 
I'm allowed to grieve.All Rights Reserved

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𝓣𝐇𝐄 𝓥𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝓘𝐒 𝓣𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐃 ! . by dear-grace

౨ৎ˚₊✩ ❪ 𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄! 𝐕𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 𝐗 𝐕𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒! 𝐅𝐄𝐌. 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 ❫ ─── ❝𝗜'𝗺 𝘁𝗶𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘃𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲... 𝗜 𝘄𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹.❞ Once again, you awaken in the body of the villainess-beautiful, powerful, and condemned to a fate you've suffered through far too many times. In every life, you've played the part: manipulating, scheming, only to be cast aside or ruined. But this time is different. This time, you're too tired to care. The court's drama can unfold without you. All you want is a quiet life away from it all. But when fate has written you into a role of tragedy, will it let you go so easily? Or will this be yet another life where escape is nothing more than a cruel dream?

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𝓣𝐇𝐄 𝓥𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝓘𝐒 𝓣𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐃 ! .

౨ৎ˚₊✩ ❪ 𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄! 𝐕𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐔𝐒 𝐗 𝐕𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒! 𝐅𝐄𝐌. 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 ❫ ─── ❝𝗜'𝗺 𝘁𝗶𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘃𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗮𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲... 𝗜 𝘄𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗹𝗹.❞ Once again, you awaken in the body of the villainess-beautiful, powerful, and condemned to a fate you've suffered through far too many times. In every life, you've played the part: manipulating, scheming, only to be cast aside or ruined. But this time is different. This time, you're too tired to care. The court's drama can unfold without you. All you want is a quiet life away from it all. But when fate has written you into a role of tragedy, will it let you go so easily? Or will this be yet another life where escape is nothing more than a cruel dream?