The reason I live
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Last published Thu, Mar 22, 2018
I've had depression sense I was ten years of age. One teacher impacted my life and ,because of that I lost all respect for myself. I thought that if I just killed myself the pain would stop ,but I wasn't strong enough to end it all. After my depression started I lost all hope ,but three years later I finally realized that I have a reason to live.
Hey guys! This book was made in my GT class seventh grade year and I thought why not post it. The story is based off of my life experience ,but I will not use real names for private reasons. I have talked with all my friends and they gave me random names to use. Thx you guys for reading bye!!
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