Suicide Diary
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Austin West is an 18 years old high school student that has the inability to separate the reality from illusion
Sometimes he gets a delusion of killing himself and getting transported into a different and nightmare-like places.
He even wonders if the reality itself is an illusion.
Until someone came to his life.
Someone mysterious.
Someone powerful enough to save him from the nightmare.
-Just a reminder. There will be some grammatical errors and please bear with me since English isn't my first language.
Also this is a first person narrative which means
You will be reading the events that happened to Austin. Including delusions, you won't be knowing what's real if you pay close attention.
But you will be reading other character's point of views
Here's some guides I have placed in the story.
¤-D-¤ = Diary Entry
*-P-* = Past Event
*~P~* = Present
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