Lost Paradise
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Confusion. The disorientation during a situation which can result in misguided decisions being made, which one will highly regret when they are no longer confused. This is what defined the worst moment in my life; confusion. This basic concept is what led to many sleepless nights, followed by long, agonizing days. This simplistic idea brought me to tears, and, eventually, led me right over the edge of my sanity. Because of my regretful decision, I have lived only in part, with more than 75% of me flashing back to the calm before the storm; To a time where happiness fueled my smile, and you were the only one that I always turned to. Now, I sit here idly, watching my phone in sorrow as I realize that another message will go ignored while living under the wrongful pretense of being "just friends". And to think... my life would resolve down to nothing more than binary code, and a letter to seal my gruesome fate. Let this be a message to all who stand in the grey area that is confusion: rethink your decisions, because should you pick wrong, you will regret it for the rest of your life. The number of people who truly know the contents of these pages is few, but in the end, I am only really writing to you: the colorblind prince.
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