Only Down
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Last published Sat, Jul 14, 2018
"Its like drowning", she said. "First is the water enclosing your body. You're almost calm for a moment, before it fills your lungs. You can't breathe, you can't think. There are several screams in your head all at once. Spinning and spinning goes your mind. Then, it stops. Things go silent. And you're left with absolutely nothing. No thoughts or feelings. It's complete nothingness. That, my friend, is how it feels when your life sends demons to kill you. And where else is there to go when everything falls apart? Only down."
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