Suicidal// A.I (Ashton Irwin)
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TRIGGER WARNING! (Self-Harm, Suicidal thoughts and abuse)
(NOT RECOMMENDED FOR PEOPLE UNDER THE AGE OF 16 AND OR GOING THOUGH TOUGH TIMES)
I stood looking at myself in the mirror my face looking as pale as possible, the longer I stare the more I hated and felt disgusted in myself. Slipping the razor back into the soap box, I know I should have flushed my razors a long time ago but I couldn't bring myself to do so. I just can't let go it was more than an addiction to me, it was need. I liked the feeling of being in control you know... of my life for once.
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