Devil in Me (Adam Winchester/Milligan x Reader)

"They said that they were there for me, how was I supposed to know they really were. All they did was make it worse,"
"They are the reason why I did this, they are the reason I would harm myself, but Adam, my Adam, he was my lover..He disappeared,"
"My depression became worse, I would harm myself ten times worse than I normally did. But one day, I had enough. I couldn't take it anymore. So I ended it. I killed myself. Adam wasn't there anymore."
"And now, I'm a monster, I have some devil in me, I want it gone! I want Adam.."

(This is a Supernatural fanfiction with Adam Winchester/Milligan as your lover, there are plenty mentions of suicide. So this is a warning if you get triggered easily.)
(And please, don't harm your self. I have tried to kill myself so many times and have had depression for five years, you can get through it, I'm here for you whether you believe that or not.
I saved many friends, I can save you, even if you barely know me. Boys have depression too.)