i dont know how to be happy

we'll see where this goes

hi, i'm taylor. c'est moi. i'm bipolar and DEPRESSED AS FUCK. i laugh at my own depression when i'm happy. i listen to "breathe me" by sia when i'm sad. i think about cutting myself at least once everytime i'm depressed & crying in bed. i bottle up my feelings to a point where i'll start crying when i look at something that's really sad and (it depends on how much i cry) but i could cry for hours. i usually cry at night & i've mastered not cryin loudly so that my family cant hear me.