In my dream I'm in a bathroom crying in the bathtub. There is a loud banging on the door, and angry yelling along with it. The door quakes, and I know that it will soon give out, letting the angry force from the outside in. The wood door starts to split and light shines through, and I can finally hear the angry voice. It's Maraschino. He breaks through the door, finally, and comes after me. I scream, and cower in the corner of the tub. He grabs my neck, and shakes me. I plead, and cry for him to let me go, and he finally does. The he starts to hit me, repeatedly. He finally stops and yells at me. "You're worthless, Holly! You're the ugliest girl I've ever met, you don't deserve to be with me! You don't deserve to be with anyone! You're going to die alone, in your little apartment in the bad part of town." "Please, please, please, please, don't hurt me." "I'm not going to waste another second on you!" He leaves, and I lay down in the bathtub crying. I start to hyperventilate, scared that what he said was true. "Holly!" No, no, no, no, no, he can't be back. "Holly! Wake up!" "Holly!" I open my eyes to see Maraschino on top of me, shaking me awake. His eyes flood with relief once he sees my eyes open. He pulls me into a hug. "Holly I was worried, what happened?" "I was, I was in a dream, an-and you were there and y-y-you" I couldn't finish the sentence, I was terrified, terrified he'd hate me once he heard what I'd dreamt, I just kept crying. "Shhh, shhh, it's okay. You're okay. I'm here, nothing is going to hurt you when you're with me."
Even from far away, all I could see was you.
"Who is who?" Derek asked, unfazed, sipping on the remainder of his protein shake from class.
"Her." I didn't point to you, to avoid being too obvious, so I nodded my head in the most subtle way. "Laughing, smiling. Do you see her?"
"The girl with the guy hanging off of her who's clearly her boyfriend? I think he plays on the varsity team. She's probably a cheerleader."
I pretty much ignored everything he said. I didn't care. I was already too far gone and into you.
"I have to have her."
He must have found that incredibly hilarious because he almost choked on the remainder of his protein shake.
"Good luck, kid."
"What?" I took my eyes off of you for a second and gave Derek a look. "You can't picture it?"
"How blinded by her are you right now?" He waved his hand in front of my face and I pushed it away as he attempted to connect the dots for me again. "I repeat: cheerleader, guy, out of your fucking league."
"Hey, let's not make assumptions now. She could be into girls and not even know it. Oh my god, she just smiled at me. Did you see that? Were you looking?"
I was in love with you the second you walked into my sight.
"There's a lot going on in this vicinity," he laughed and I shoved him as he taunted me.
"Jerk. I'm gonna talk to her."