Dear Ian

Do you ever know how it feels like to see the one you love, love someone else? And the thought of that someone else is that they don't deserve that someone you love? It hurts like hell; like a thousand knives been thrown to you all at once. And you can't even look back because you are stuck having to see them both together. What makes it even worse is that, he is my best friend. He is the love of my life. But... He doesn't even know it yet. Soon... I always have this thought hat me and him would never happen. 99% say that he will never fall in love with me but it is that 1% that keeps me going. What is 1% with 99%? Clearly my chances are impossible it will never ever happen! But I'm not that type who gives up that easily. He is someone I love. No, I am not obsessed or anything. If I were obsessed, I would've killed that little bitch already. But no, I am not a psychopath either. I just don't want to see my best friend get hurt.He is everything to me. It's kind've like my whole life is a joke. Yeah it sucks to be me.