Never Ever, Again

"Why wont you forgive me? I was young & stupid. I wasn't thinking."

"I couldn't careless. I can't find it in my fucking heart to forgive you after what you did to me! Ty, you broke me..." I whispered. "For two years, I was alone, I was by my fucking self. I was depressed. Now, that I've finally

realise that it was time to move on, you come crawling back to me? Don't you want to see me happy? You selfish jerk! I don't want you! I hate you Tyler Flynn Harper... Now, please back off."

I saw pain in his eyes, like he was about to burst into tears. "I'm sorry, Teena." he mumbled as he slowly backed off & turning to his heels & walked towards his car. He gave me one more glance, before speeding off.

I felt tears fall from my eyes, seeing my first love walk away from me again. I can fight this. I can get over him. Then I can be happy again, right? Seems fairly easy doesn't it? Wrong. Very wrong... He was really my everything. He was my first love, even though he wasn't my first kiss nor hug. I wished he could've been my last. Wrong. I couldn't tame a player like him. Him, himself even deserved a head cheerleader. Not some girl like me. Although, his role was to take what you want & leave. That's exactly what I'm doing too. Only, will I be able to do it without hurting myself? We'll see about that...