meant to be // phan
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Dan Howell has a rough life. Ever since he came out as gay, he has become a target for the bullies at school, and his parents. He has been teased, been called worthless and much more. He has fallen into a dark hole of depression he can't escape. He self harms almost every night, trying to forget about the pain. He wishes someone can pull him out of the black hole of depression.
It just so happens, Phil Lester, the biggest bully of the school saves Dan from his bullies. And that's where everything changes.
WARNING: depression, flashbacks, self harm, homophobia, bullying, physical/verbal abuse.
Don't read if easily triggered.
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