This Isn't Closure
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"They told me coming back here would make me feel better. That maybe I would be given closure, as if just revisiting an old memory would change everything. I'd like to say that they were right, that suddenly the world was lifted from my shoulders, releasing me from my hunched-back position. I'd like to say that, though I would never forget you, I would be able to move on and live my life.
There are too many things I'd like to say. So many things that I wish I'd said . . ."
(On the cover is the username 'CreateTheLie' because that was my old one... Just in case anyone was confused.)
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