Dysfunctional Notebook

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MatureOngoing28m

Last published Mon, Dec 16, 2024

This is my struggles as an author and a lover. As a mentally damaged boy. This will show my death date, and big events curled into a story of a realist fiction. The majority will be true besides some characters and of course name differences to hide said people identity for many do not want to be part of the said book. The story of a boy who finally gave up, and started to write. This is his escape.

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Lost Silver x BEN Drowned
I ran out of ideas on a different book, sooo why not write about my OTP? They both be ga(y)mer boys, and they're both dead, therefore they can quite literally be together forever, wish I had someone like that :')
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Love... Not Romance [BoyxBoy]
Everything started the night before we moved out of our town. I decided to take a late night swim at the lake I love the most. It was sort of a goodbye, a way to somehow wash the pain brought about by my parents' divorce, but then he appeared. As I was floating in the lake, watching the moon and the stars, I heard a noise in the water, and as I turned my head, I saw this guy drowning. I saved him, I brought him back to life, and then... I kissed him and fell in love with him. Things changed after that one stolen kiss. I ran away, and I never thought that I would see him once again, but I did. Little did I know that the moment we meet again, my life would never be the same. This is a story, of how I learn what love really is, of how I came to accept it, of how I came to fight for it. This is not a story about romance. It's way more than that. This is a story where love, family, and little bit of mystery collides. This is a story about my love.
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Myocardium
"When the night fades into dawn's palette..." Sex, drugs and the death-dealing pressure to make money night after night - It's a steep, downward spiral which 20-year-old Elijah Everdeen has found himself stuck in ever since his parents died. If it weren't for his two siblings, he would have given up years ago. For a long time, he wanted to, thought about it every day even. Sometimes - in the cruelest, darkest of nights - he still does. But if this black-and-white world has really become Elijah's grim reality, then why is this young, mysterious man capable of adding color and a heartbeat to this dreadfully achromatic still life Eli is trapped in? Who is he? And...who is he REALLY? "...the shadows hidden in darkness are unveiled by the light." ~~~~~ DISCLAIMER: The storyline of this book is entirely fictional. All the characters, names, places, legal regulations, events, incidents, organizations and businesses in this story either stem from my imagination or are utilized in an entirely fictitious manner. Any resemblance to the real life, including events or persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental and any deviations from reality are not intended to mock, malign or devalue real morals, laws or happenings. General TW for heavy topics - Please stay safe and prioritize your well-being! © 2024 All rights reserved to @mireyasatura on Wattpad
Ripped Away
"He was the best part of me, you know? He was so much more than I deserved. And he was real. He was so real it's insane. How do you go from having something so amazing, to having nothing?" ***Note: I wrote this story a while ago so the quality isn't as strong as it could be. I'm currently going through and fixing what I can. So if you get to a point where the quality changes, that's why.
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Levels [boyxboy]
It all started in my Junior year of high school. That year was when everything changed, when everything that I've known about myself was no longer true. I was just a normal 17 year old boy. One boy, changed that all. He gave me love. He showed me hard time and times that we almost didn't make through. Some things brought us closer together, and some things pushed us apart. But I know, no matter what, I he will always have my heart. (This is book 1 of the levels series.)
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Better
When you've never been given anything but a hard ride, it can be hard to see why living is worth it. But sometimes it takes something special to wake you up. It takes one moment to make you realize that you need to change. **WARNING** DRUGS AND SEXUAL ABUSE ARE USED AS TOPICS IN THIS STORY. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE.
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Abyss in My Head... (Yaoi, Psychological)
{Complete, 14 Chapters & an Epilogue} How does it feel loving a person who has a serious mental problem? Due to a traumatic past, Lyle lost all his memories and developed a Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. He suffered from panic attacks, anxieties, recurring nightmares and a habit of harming himself . Kieran knew Lyle couldn't remember anything. He also knew that there was only a tiny chance of being able to gain the young man's love again. He wasn't giving up though. ...even if it means being in a relationship where his patience, understanding and acceptance were constantly being tested, Kieran was determined to stay. WARNING: THIS BOOK IS NOT FOR THE SENSITIVE AND FAINT-HEARTED ONES. So many triggers inside. Please skip the book if you think you can't handle it.
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This isn't what friends do
Coming out must be hard but only doing so because you can no longer hide your feelings for your bestfriend is unimaginable. A story about falling in love after a long time coming... * "I'm jealous? I'm controlling? You couldn't even let a guy touch me in there without pushing them away. You're not so innocent yourself Brandon. Don't look at me like that." He caught my chin forcing my eyes up to his again. "Or what?" I asked my voice shaking. I don't know what he was trying to say but it was all true. My breath came out jittery, staggered and just like that he was pressing his lips into mine with such pressure. I didn't move for a second too scared what the hell this was. I couldn't even think, did I want to kiss him back? Did I like this? I was staring wide eyed in shock at him still his eyes open to as he stayed perfectly still neither one of us moving. Before I knew it he was pulling away wiping me from his mouth his eyes adverted embarrassed* #1 in complicatedrelationships #1 in jealous #8 in feelings #6 in romance! #1 in comingoutofthecloset #6 in wattpride Part two out now!! Through it all is set a few years in the future for this pair. Continue to read more about their crazy life with all its ups and downs. Check it out 👍
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Orange On The Bed ✓
The way it was done has never satisfied me. In fact, I wasn't really satisfied with my life. All I know is that I need to finish my education and get a good, stable, decent job because of my very successful father. Though, it's not gonna happen before you taste something new. Something, risky and addictive. Something your dad's going to bring... And somewhat new mother and brother who'll change the momentum of your doings... [Contains Homosexual Intercourses, like a lot.]
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Lost Silver x BEN Drowned

I ran out of ideas on a different book, sooo why not write about my OTP? They both be ga(y)mer boys, and they're both dead, therefore they can quite literally be together forever, wish I had someone like that :')

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