Couldn't Escape You Even If I Tried

My entire life i had been an orphan,i was abandoned on the footsteps of an adoption agency.I tried being perfect so that my adoptive parents would love me but everytime something disastrous happens and i got sent back to the adoption agency.I got nicknamed "The Catastrophy Child".It's like i'm jinxed and doom follows me wherever i go and affects people who adopted me.Ever since i was 5,i decided i hated my birth parents more than anything,but when the past finally catches up to me,will ibe able to handle my bitter past?Can i forgive those who have hurt me deeply?Can i ever be happy?