Excuse Me, Your Eating Disorder is calling...

People are so quick to say girls with with eating disorders are just "seeking attention" but I had one for years & years and I must say, my number two objective was to never get caught. We're talking about an illness that changes your whole perspective of life. This isn't something you become over night this is something that takes weeks and months to burry itself in you. Even after years of recovery you still have those thoughts. You'll read this poem and you'll question my sanity but in reality this is the normal conversation a lot of girls have with themselves every single day. I wrote this when I was about 13. I'm 20 years old now. I still her these thoughts from time to time.