I've always been the socially awkward type of girl. I didn't mind, even though I don't have many friends, I liked be alone. It was calming and acceptable. I never pictured myself as being the social, popular, and beautiful girl, until Rowan came into my life and changed everything. It wasn't necessarily for the best, but it happened and I couldn't stop it. Being socially awkward or shy isn't bad, it sucks not being able to say a single word to a person without having anxiety and start thinking stuff you don't want to think, it just happens. I never wished for it to stopped, it was something I was born with.