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Passion for Perfection | Open Novella Contest 2019

Reads 220
Votes 48
Parts 15
Time 1h 46m

Reads 220
Votes 48
Parts 15
Time 1h 46m

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**OPEN NOVELLA CONTEST LONG LIST ENTRANT**

Passion can be your distraction,
Success can be your fall,
But to have neither is to be broken,
It's better not to love at all.

-:-:-:-

My name is Jane.
I have only one goal:
To succeed.

And yet as I watched my world burn,
I didn't fetch the water;
I fueled it further.

It caused me pain,
But I created it;
So I stood by it.

Little did I know,
I had to accept the truth;
that I had failed.

-:-:-:-

"... This is hell,
   but I planned it, I sawed it,
I nailed it, and I
   will live in it until it kills me."

- ALAN DUGAN
  "Love Song: I and Thou"


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RANKINGS
#49 - ONC
#30 - failure


TRIGGER WARNINGS 
Mentions of abuse
Suicide attempt
Depressing thoughtsAll Rights Reserved

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