What I Can't Say Out Loud

This is a journal in some sorts. There are things that may be triggering to some people. Let's just say, this probably won't get popular but I believe having an anonymous outlet to the public will help me in the long run. Some background information: I started this when I was 17 and at my lowest during my Junior year of high school. I have bipolar disorder and severe depression. I am now 19 and am half way through my freshmen year of college. All of the entries posted are between the time period of when I started this and where I am at now. They do not have an exact order and are purely real thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis or are thoughts I have previously dealt with. This is not for the faint at heart, and I do not condone/support doing any of the actions written. This is for my own closure.
•TRIGGERS: self harm, abuse, suicide, drug use, rape, and a few other things.•