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What I Can't Say Out Loud

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mindlessbickering

bipolardisorder depression growingup journal memoir recovery substanceabuse

This is a journal in some sorts. There are things that may be triggering to some people. Let's just say, this probably won't get popular but I believe having an anonymous outlet to the public will help me in the long run. Some background information: I started this when I was 17 and at my lowest during my Junior year of high school. I have bipolar disorder and severe depression. I am now 19 and am half way through my freshmen year of college. All of the entries posted are between the time period of when I started this and where I am at now. They do not have an exact order and are purely real thoughts that go through my head on a daily basis or are thoughts I have previously dealt with. This is not for the faint at heart, and I do not condone/support doing any of the actions written. This is for my own closure.
•TRIGGERS: self harm, abuse, suicide, drug use, rape, and a few other things.•All Rights Reserved

bipolardisorder depression growingup journal memoir recovery substanceabuse

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"After every time I had wasted on someone who didn't matter, you came along and didn't even touch me. You didn't hold my hand, kiss me or even give me high fives. I'd just watch you from afar, falling more and more in love with what I saw. I couldn't care less about not touching you. All I cared about was if you were safe. And I've found that that is what love truly is and truly should be." (Updates every Wednesday and Saturday!)

Depressive quotes by KaydensaysTrights

The title says it all. *TRIGGER WARNING* Remember these are depressive quotes, so please if you get triggered easily, please just do not read. If you do, then... well... I can't really stop you... IMPORTANT: I only began all of this when I was about 12 or 13 years old, so there is a chance that there are a few mistakes here and there since I was really bad at english back then. Also these qoute books have been on hold for a while and I have only just been able to begin to get them up and running again, so please, if you find any mistakes just leave a comment real quick and I will fix it as soon as possible. thank you and I hope you enjoy - Kayden❤ *completed*

You don't know me by You_Dont_Know_Me9374

⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Not for the faint of heart, I explore dark parts of my mind and unfurl them for your own enjoyment. All of these stories are true. You don't know me, and you're never going to. This is basically just a shitty diary of my life with very few details as to who I am, Don't want to scare you off. Feel free to read but I don't really care. I'm just a screwed up guy that everyone knows and nobody cares about really. If you can't tell I'll probably swear quite a bit in this so if you don't like that I'm sorry, but this really isn't a good read anyway it's just me complaining about the fact I still exist. Actually no, whilst I did start this to complain about my life, the stories are fluctuating, as I discover I am infact worthy of love, even I don't believe it at all times. I hope you enjoy my rantings. ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️

TOXIC REWIND by girlwithregrets11

"We were never meant to last... but we couldn't stay away." They met in high school-young, reckless, and hopelessly in love. When it all fell apart, they thought that was the end. But some love stories refuse to stay buried. When they find their way back to each other, it isn't the fairytale they once dreamed of. Love turns toxic, passion turns destructive, and together, they become the worst versions of themselves. How far will they go before they finally break for good? Or is this the kind of love that never really dies, no matter how much it burns?

Someone New ✓ by wambuimuiruriii

"There comes a point where you no longer care if there's a light at the end of the tunnel or not. You're just sick of the tunnel." - Who I am doesn't matter. How I got here doesn't matter. What matters now is I'm getting help, right? That's what they tell me here. They tell me that the road to recovery feels like a terrible butt fuck, but the fact that you're on the path to begin with, is all that matters. So as I sit in this circle of fuck ups, I realize just how different I am from them. I didn't attempt suicide because my mother was a crack addict who didn't want me. My father wasn't abusive. I didn't have a sibling die in a car accident. I was never really bullied either. I attempted suicide because, for the first time in years, I thought I had found something that could make me feel again... and after not feeling much at all for far too long, perhaps I went a bit overboard

Tumor Love by DeniedDesire

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Elizabeth by Everest438

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The Words I couldn't Say by -silentmochi

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Beneath The Surface: Book Two

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