Not Quite A Butterfly
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When an imaginative person develops an illness, dreams can be a way of escape. Tales of make-believe and fantasy get mixed up with twisted reality, and sometimes it's hard to tell what's real and what's fake.
This is a collection of true diary passages, poems and stories taken from the journal of a teenager with mental illness. Hopefully this might help spread awareness, or make someone realise that they're not alone with how they're feeling.
Caution: Talk of suicide, self harm, death, assault and abuse ahead! May be triggering to some!
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