This Is Not What I Wanted

This Is Not What I wanted:

But I cannot stand this pain anymore

I try to pretend and act like whoever expects,

I have no respect for humanity,

My arms are spread on the floor

my arms are spread on the floor, as I am weeping because I keep a secret, I am a demon, I am bad luck everything I touch turns into black, my soul and heart are the blackest of blacks.

I just want to forget my life,

Wishing and hoping for a better day

ignoring all the things people tell,

the blackness of fear takes over my thoughts

I try to fight this darkness, but it is in vain.

But I cannot tell the truth to anyone because everything around me is black.

Obsidian is the place where I am today.

Raven is the blood that seeped into the sand.

Somber is the reason that I am no, longer hurting, how I bare all the unspoken truths in my mind,

I have no regrets,

Because Black is my soul.