to my love

this is for my first big love,
my one and only,
my life.
even though you'll never
love me as much as i do,
you are my one and only.

yes, i loved him with all
my heart, my pores.
i loved him for who he was.
now he's found someone
who he loves senselessly.
and i've found someone, too.
i still adore him and would
go back to him if he asked me,
but i figured out how to
accept what happened, move
on and live.
i am the kind of person who
would like to be friends with
their ex, and i want him to
be happy.
we're acting kind of weird,
but even if we won't be able
to be normal with each other
again, i'll be able to live with
him not looking at me
the way he used to.
i know that i will probably
never forget him, but it's okay.

this book is now
no longer needed.
i won't finish it though,
because there still is
the possibility of
me wanting to write
him something.

it just no longer is
a book to my
first big love.