This Is My Heartbeat Song
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MatureOngoing7m
Last published Thu, May 3, 2018
This is the story that everyone needs to hear. This is the story of how I fell victim to sexual assault, and how I chose to deal with it. Many people have helped me through this hard time that I have experienced and I want to thank them for that. Some people's parts may be longer than others, and some may only be a chapter long, but that doesn't make them any less important. These people are my friends and my family, but most importantly, my heart and soul. They saved me when I couldn't do that for myself. This is my heartbeat song, and I'm gonna play it. I hope you'll take the time to play it too.
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I came up with an idea for my book, so this is the summary for the new idea. DM me or comment if you like it so far.
Much Love.
CollegeWarrior
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