Pain isn't always physical
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MatureComplete Fri, May 4, 201815m
This story is very close to my heart, this was very difficult to write because i share a lot with this character, please enjoy and i hope if you are suffering through some of the same things this character is maybe this can help. I wrote this to share with some of my friends and family, not so they could take pity on me but so they could understand why I am the way I am.
Carter is 23 and she has severe anxiety and major depressive disorder, it is difficult for her to get out of bed every morning and do simple tasks, she meets someone and they try to break down her walls and befriend her.
*This has some dark themes but if anything gets to extreme i will put a warning *
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