Insecurities
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Do you ever talk to yourself? Like a dialogue but only your voice is heard. Tonight I did. I was saying over and over again you're a fuck up. You messed up again. Why do you have to be this way? Why couldn't you just... Why are you so... And so on. And then I started to talk to you. Not myself. You were there and you were listening to me telling you all I've said today and so more.
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Hey guys! It's a little different from stories that I write but I still wanted to post this in the hope she might find this someday. This is a letter to my crush about an infamous night where I messed up and I guess it's my apology letter but it's more then that.
Anyway, if you want to read it it's here. It's pretty angsty though so be prepared. Thanks for reading!
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