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The Bitter Pill I Swallow

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Reads 18
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Time <5 mins

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16 year old Ryan Ross has been dealing with the voice in his head since he was 13.
the voice is named Brendon.
His parent say Brendon isn't real.
But Ryan doesn't listen, because Brendon is the only one who he has to talk too.

The truth is Ryan deals with depression, insomnia, and self harms. 

Ryan has no friends, and is bullied at school. But he won't open up to anyone, will Ryan get the help he needs or join Brendon.All Rights Reserved

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The Casual Affair (Ryden/Mpreg) by kaydwen

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Fightin Like Hell For You ; ryden by therapeuticchain

Brendon Urie, a 16 year old with no friends and ADHD, enters Ryan Ross' house under the belief it's abandoned. When he meets the Ross family he finally feels complete. Brendon Urie and Ryan Ross quickly catch feelings for each other. Will their love last? Will people come between them? Will their short time of knowing each other affect their relationship? Read to find out. (I'm really bad at descriptions. This is my first book and it's really really cliche. But I really like cliches so maybe you will too)

Unfinished Business ~ Ryden by oppaiirl

After the split of Panic! At The Disco and the breakup of Brendon and Ryan, Brendon couldn't deal with the loneliness of being without Ryan at his side. As time went on Brendon got to the point of taking his own life. After his funeral, while Ryan is grieving the great loss of his ex lover Brendon is being sent back to earth to fix past mistakes and complete unfinished business that he hadn't when he was alive. What will Ryan do when his supposedly deceased ex lover shows up on his doorstep and what is the reason Brendon was sent back?

When the day met the night (Ryden) by justadudewithaphone

Brendon starts life in the Foster system after his parents kicked him out when he is outed to them through school. He eventually finds a friend in a kid named Ryan. Ryans cold, doesn't talk to anyone but there's something in Brendon that makes him look twice. Maybe it's the way he sings in the shower, or the way his lavender hoodie hangs off of his shoulders, or maybe it's just the look in his eye that says fuck it. TRIGGER WARNING

A Second Chance? by RydenThisShip

Ryan has suffered an indescribable loss. He's convinced he's meant to go it alone for the rest of his life. Then Brendon enters the picture... A Ryden AU.

Boarding School~Ryden by Ryanbottoms

Roommates. Usually chosen, typically friends. Not Brendon and Ryan. Ryan appeared suddenly. No one but himself knew where he came from. All of the sudden, he was handed a room key, and sent off to an elite boarding school. When he arrived, he expected to hate every second. That all of his roommates would be snobby, homophobic, rich assholes. He certainly didn't expect Brendon. And he certainly didn't expect to fall in love with him. *Mature Content: Sexual acts, mentions of past abuse, homophobic language/acts, etc. *

this one time at bandcamp by livejournalryden

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The Waiter and The Musician (Ryden) by WickedSinner35

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Hallucinogens (Ryden)

Trigger Warning: Reference to past rape. Ryan Ross is a messed up college drop out. Drugs have become his best friends to escape the nightmare that was his reality on that fateful summer night in 2014. Usually Ryan prefers to keep to himself, however when money is running low and he really needs to get fucked up and just forget, he decides to finally attend one of his friend, Spencer's, well renowned parties. Amongst the blur of people one boy stands out to him. So what does Ryan end up doing when he wakes up the next morning, coming down from a trip with that stranger stuck in his head. Hell, the only thing he can remember from that night was the way the light reflected in his gorgeous dark brown eyes.