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Interior Deterioration

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Reads 1,220
Votes 46
Parts 32
Time 1 hour, 39 minutes

deppressed depressed escape mylife mysanity release struggling struging

Okay, so here's the deal. This isn't supposed to be for anyone except me. I just need somewhere to write my thoughts a place where someone could possibly feel the same way I do. So, if this bothers you, feel free to comment telling me how much of a loser I am. You won't be the first. And for those of you who might enjoy it.. Umm.. Good for you I guess? Oh, and if anyone on here knows who I am, please don't tell anyone. Please. This isn't a daily update kind of thing. This isn't a diary. This isn't for entertainment. This is for me to keep my sanity. This is for me to vent my thoughts. This is my kind of way to yell in privacy. So if you'd like to, sit back, and enjoy the words I write while I sit alone, depressed in my room.All Rights Reserved

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