Interior Deterioration
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Last published Sun, May 17, 2015
Okay, so here's the deal. This isn't supposed to be for anyone except me. I just need somewhere to write my thoughts a place where someone could possibly feel the same way I do. So, if this bothers you, feel free to comment telling me how much of a loser I am. You won't be the first. And for those of you who might enjoy it.. Umm.. Good for you I guess? Oh, and if anyone on here knows who I am, please don't tell anyone. Please. This isn't a daily update kind of thing. This isn't a diary. This isn't for entertainment. This is for me to keep my sanity. This is for me to vent my thoughts. This is my kind of way to yell in privacy. So if you'd like to, sit back, and enjoy the words I write while I sit alone, depressed in my room.
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Tʜɪs ɪsɴ'ᴛ ᴀ Sᴛᴏʀʏ. Iᴛ's ʙᴀsɪᴄᴀʟʟʏ ᴀɴ Aᴜᴛᴏʙɪᴏɢʀᴀᴘʜʏ. I ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴇxᴘʀᴇss ᴍʏsᴇʟғ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛʜɪs ʙᴏᴏᴋ. I'ᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs, ᴇxᴘᴇʀɪᴇɴᴄᴇs, ғᴇᴇʟɪɴɢs, ᴇᴛᴄ, ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛʜɪs ʙᴏᴏᴋ. Wʜʏ? Yᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇ sᴛᴏʀʏ. Yᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ɪᴛ, sᴘᴇᴀᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴀʙᴛ ɪᴛ ᴜɴʟᴇss ᴛʜᴇʏ'ʀᴇ ᴡɪʟʟɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ sɪᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ʟɪsᴛᴇɴ ᴛᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ғᴏʀ ʜᴏᴜʀs. Yᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴛᴇxᴛ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ᴇɪᴛʜᴇʀ. Iᴛ'ᴅ ʙᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏɴɢ ᴛᴇxᴛ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴇxᴘʀᴇssɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜʀsᴇʟғ- ʜᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ғᴇʟᴛ, ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴍᴇssᴀɢᴇs, ᴅᴏᴇsɴ'ᴛ ᴡᴏʀᴋ ᴡᴇʟʟ. Iɴ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ɪs ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ, ʙᴜᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏs ᴀᴠᴀɪʟᴀʙʟᴇ ᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ ᴏᴘᴛɪᴏɴ. Sᴏ ʜᴏᴡ ᴅᴏ I ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴘᴘʟ Mᴇ? Wʜᴀᴛ I ᴍᴇᴀɴ ʙʏ 'Mᴇ', I ᴍᴇᴀɴ Mʏ Lɪғᴇ sᴏ Fᴀʀ. Wʜᴀᴛ I'ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ, Mʏ Mᴇᴍᴏʀɪᴇs, Mʏ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜᴛs, Mʏ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴᴀʟɪᴛʏ. Hᴏᴡ ᴄᴀɴ I ʟᴇᴛ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴍᴇ ᴄᴏᴍᴘʟᴇᴛᴇʟʏ- ᴏʀ ᴀᴛ ʟᴇᴀsᴛ Mᴏsᴛ ᴏғ ᴍᴇ? I'ᴍ ᴀᴡᴀʀᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ's ᴇᴀsɪᴇʀ ᴡᴀʏs ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴛʜɪs. I ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ ᴄʟᴏsᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ. Bᴜᴛ, I ғᴇᴇʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪs.. Tʜɪs ɪs ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴇᴀsɪᴇʀ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴇ. I ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ʀᴜsʜ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ. I ᴄᴀɴ ᴘᴜᴛ ɪɴ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴅᴇᴛᴀɪʟ, ᴇxᴘʟᴀɪɴ ᴛᴏ ғᴜʟʟ ᴇxᴛᴇɴᴛ.
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𝑙𝑒𝑡 𝑚𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢
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Through My Eyes
Going through life, trying not to give a fuck about what people say, and screaming at things that don't exist to other people but does to me. Have a good day! ******************************************************************************************* Contains: strong language, complaining, and in the earlier updates, thought of harming myself, and sucidal ideas as well. Would not recommand you read if you have history with these thing as it may or may not trigger.Complete
ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ꜱᴇᴇᴍᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴍᴇ ʟᴀᴜɢʜ ᴏʀ ꜱᴍɪʟᴇ, ɪɴ ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ꜱᴏʀᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴡᴀʏ. ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴇʀ ᴡᴀꜱ ʜʏᴘɴᴏᴛɪᴢɪɴɢ, ʜᴇʀ ɪᴄʏ ʙʟᴜᴇ ᴇʏᴇꜱ ꜱᴇᴇᴍ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴍᴀɢɴᴇᴛ. ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛ ᴋᴇᴘᴛ ᴘᴜʟʟɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅ ʜᴇʀ. ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ᴋɪʟʟ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴ 50 ᴅᴀʏꜱ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ᴍʏ ᴘʟᴀɴ, ʙᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴀ ɢɪʀʟ ᴘʀɪᴇꜱ ʜᴇʀꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢꜱ ɢᴏ ꜱᴏʀᴛᴀ ᴏꜰꜰ ᴛʀᴀᴄᴋ. ɪ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ɢᴇᴛ ᴄʟᴏꜱᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴇʀ, ᴛᴏ ꜱᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴ ʙᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴋɪɴᴅᴀ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴᴅ. ɴᴏᴡ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ꜰɪɢᴜʀᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏ ɢᴏ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴜʀᴛɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ. ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴏᴘɪɴɢ ꜱʜᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ᴄᴏᴘᴇ ʙʏ ʜᴇʀꜱᴇʟꜰ. ꜱʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴀᴛᴛᴀᴄʜᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ɪꜱ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴇᴀʀᴛʜ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴅᴀʏ ᴡᴇ'ʟʟ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ, ɪɴ ᴀ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ɪ'ᴍ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ, ɪᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴏɴᴇ. ᴀ ʙɪʟʟɪᴇ ᴇɪʟɪꜱʜ ꜰᴀɴꜰɪᴄ. -ʟᴏᴡᴇʀᴄᴀꜱᴇ ɪɴᴛᴇɴᴅᴇᴅ
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