ILY (Even if it hurts)

"Baby, I love you." he whispered in my ears.

Him hugging me from my back feels like I'm the most secured person on Earth. I couldn't ask for another man because him alone is enough for me. My tears can't stop rolling in my cheeks. I love him so much eventhough it hurts. I love him so much even if I don't love myself.

"Yeah, I know..." di ko na nadugtungan pa ang nais sabihin dahil namimilipit na ang puso ko. His hard breathing made me guess that he also is crying.

Humarap ako sa kanya and hugged him so tight. He kissed my forehead and caresses my hair. At doon na ako napahagulgol ng iyak. Tinatahan niya ako pero bakit parang mas lalo akong nasasaktan? Bakit parang ang sakit sakit?

"Bryan... I'm sorry." Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. Naramdaman kung gumaan ang paghinga niya pagkatapos ng hingang malalim. "Sssh baby, it's not your fault. I love you." I can feel that he is hurting but he is being brave.

I look at him and his eyes was bloodshot. He touched my stomach and caresses it. And again, my heart broke into pieces. My baby, our baby is gone.