Soon.
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Last published Wed, Jul 9, 2014
Soon. Soon I will drop to the floor in an unconscious haze. Soon I will regret it. Soon I will have no reason to regret anything else. Soon my pale blue eyes will role back on my skull. Soon I will drink myself off a cliff and there will be no turning back. Soon my young, but weak heart will stop beating. And then one day there will be no more soons, because soon I will be dead.
I dreamt of guns on temples and sharp, metal pains in arms. I dreamt of burning rubber and and pills shoved in hands. I dreamt of long night parties but then I woke to realize it wasn't a dream, because I was already living it.
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There are people in the world that feel like they don’t belong, that they can't belong, that they have to escape. Cody is one of these people. Cody Edwards is sick of his life, he plans to end it in 7 days. He is sure nothing can stop him, nothing except the love of his life, Bree Johnson. A beautiful, headstrong girl that will stop at nothing to get him back. Traveling half way across the world to Bali is only step one in Cody's plan to leave the world.
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