If Not Now, When? // Book 1
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What started off as a normal year for Michaela Amiri, turned into a nightmare of twists and turns, haunting her every thought.
She becomes severely injured in a petty fight with a school bully.
She has to attend court hearings after someone breaks into the school and threatens her and her boyfriend.
One of her best friends is kidnapped and tortured in the next town over.
Finally, peace rested in the town of Blue Murry.
That was, until someone smashed their car into her parents while out on a business trip in Melbourne. They were killed.
Michaela and her brother get sent into a spiral of mental problems.
Until she really can't take it anymore.
(Warning! Dark themes, suicide, depression, anxiety and mental disorders.)
Book 1 of 4.
P U B L I S H E D :
If Not Now, When? - Published May 2018
If Not Here, Where? - Published Feb 2019
U P C O M I N G :
If Not Me, Who? - Expected Early to Mid 2020-21
If Not This, How? - Release date unknown
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