Sophia gold
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Last published Mon, Mar 25, 2019
Sorry, I couldn't handle it anymore. I'm sorry for disappointing you. I really am but it was hard to keep living. If I didn't die I would have made things worse. I loved you mom, dad, and Bailey. I had no friends or anyone to talk to or to help me. Please don't feel sorry for me I had to go. If it wasn't me it would be someone else, someone I loved more than anything. I'm really sorry please don't cry for me I loved you all so much. It was the only way to protect you and everyone I loved. Don't be sad and don't cry over me. I had to go I am really sorry.
love, Sophia Gold.
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