Schizophrenia
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Last published Sat, May 26, 2018
Log date-5-25...I had it again,the vision. The
Hallucinations have been getting worse since the day I got diagnosed. It's haunting,these things keep tormenting me,taunting me. I can't make it disappear but I want to...I need to. They need to go away before I lose myself forever.
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