A forbidden reality
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Ongoing31m
Last published Mon, Dec 7, 2020
"stars plastered on the sky looking like the sky's damp tears, heavenly bodies reaching upon us, a dove has the heart of a devilish bat looking closely through the key hole.. Listening to the sinful piano notes. Fingertips became the witnesses of a revolution. Goosebumps, dry lips, numb, overwhelmed with emotions.. Burying my identity in your neck, the smell of smoke filling my mouth, covering every inch of my body. The ancient torn books became a hiding place,became a peaceful fairy tale. Pulling the strings, tightening it, feeling it.. Every scar became a story every story became a reality every reality became an illusion every piece of me became a part of you"
Hey . I am trying this new thing out I hope it turns out to be okay . I really put my heart and soul into these poetries / I don't know. I hope you check it out and like it . I would be so pleased if you liked it and voted. I talk about desires mental illnesses. Problems. equality basically reality and illusions . I hope you like it . Ps : English isn't my first language so forgive me if had any grammar /spelling mistakes.
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This is a collection of my writing from the past 7 years. Before I started to write, I was a very lost individual, as are most teens, but I was lost in darkness. I was too afraid to move anywhere at all. I hid in the dark, debilitated by my own anxiety, sadnesses, anger, and hopelessness. I was desperate to be loved and feared it the most, I was a coward, I was self-destructive, I would mentally bend my thoughts to the point of bordering insanity. I was born into this world alone, and got too comfortable with it. Maybe I still am, but a fraction of what I used to be. This writing is extremely vulnerable, and potentially disturbing to others, as all my weaknesses, strengths, obsessions with making every moment sentimental, the sickening desperation I've had, the destructiveness, and the constant brutal reconstruction of my mind. Without guidance, it's been absolute intense chaos. Though, there is beauty in the darkness. Everything can be found in the darkness. You'll find that through my writing, I've somehow slowly become exactly what I've written. A living representation of my writing and what I wanted to be. Without myself even knowing it. A lot of my writing themes are based around nature, or some kind of natural aspect. The imagery I paint with natural metaphors is constant, the animals, just like you and I, the plants, and all other living things. I planted these seeds in my mind, unknowingly at the time, where I now feel the deep dark green jungle pressing at the inner walls of my skull. It's all that I want to consume my mind. There's so much to learn. The magic of nature, and it's infinite wisdom. It's as if I have been on this path all along, and I didn't even know what I was doing, yet my body and mind were passively taking care of me. Giving me and eventually showing exactly what I want, and wanted to become. I have every moment, every instance of suffering, and every epiphany to be thankful for. Soon, I'll be at peace from the raging storm.
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