You can't call it a good world

I'm a 16 year old girl and you can't exactly call my life the best but its not.........never mind it is pretty bad I have suicidal thoughts and my friends well..."friends" hate me and my mom died 14 years ago and ever since then I have had depression and anxiety meanwhile I have no idea when my dad will ever come back honestly right now as we speak he's probably in a hotel in las Vegas smoking up the room with his disgusting smelling cigar it smells like shit and getting a lap dance from a hooker.........so......yeah.....my life is pretty shitty....no doubt about it