My Feelings
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Last published Mon, May 28, 2018
Hi my name is Abby I am 15 years old for this assignment I will be telling you a little bit about myself.
I am a very reserved person when it some to sharing feeling, emotions, thoughts, and opinions. I am very scared of conflict especially if it involves me. The reason why that is because when I was a little baby I never really cried or whenever my parents would take a picture of me I would barely show a smile. But you guys might know this but I have acted so stupid for the past 3 years making stupid decisions and I am about to tell you all about those stupid decisions that I made. I will be talking about how self-harming became an unhealthy coping strategy for me. I will never be able to forget any of these three memories just like Ponyboy will never be able to forget Johnny and Dally's death.
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