"Let me love you. Be mine forever"he whispers quietly. His eyes glimmer, glimmer with hope.
''I don't want to be another"
"'Another'?"
"Another yes, I said another. Another one of your man-whore stories."
He leans back laughing.
"I have wanted you to myself, since what ? Grade five , six ?"
"Mhm.."I plead for more. And he gives me more.
"I have wanted you to me mine, no one else's. You see, I get jealous quite easily. So I tried to get your attention, fill the void. With other girls"
Okay I can't help but smile a bit. I sit back and think of how to deal with this. Suspense.. dun dun duuuun.
"I will leave you with suspense."
He cocks his head and looks at me funny.
I peck his cheek and run away. I hear him running after me .
"APRIL.."
"Jonathan"
"Wh..what now"
"I. Will make you a deal."
He nods desperately.I raise my hand and nod my head to confirm, to myself, that I am going to do this.
"If you truly love me. You'll wait a month and a half. No other girls, no problems, no bullshiting me. "
He nods and smiles. "You be yourself, from now till you die, I will do this"
I smile. "Deal bitch".
April and John are struggling to meet each other in their differences.
Working on a project for school, they learn the true selves of each other. He isn't a tough ass, but a big softie. She isn't an innocent girly girl, but a hilarious insane tomboy.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
*****
Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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