31 Delen Lopende Voor volwassenenBonnie and her seven brothers lives changed forever, after the sudden and tragic death of Bonnies' parents, eight years ago.
They had to find a way to survive and make ends meet, staying with their uncle and cousins until her oldest brother, Alexander could become their legal guardian.
Bonnie has never really 'loved' herself. When she was younger, she would always pick out something about her she didn't like.
Whether it was a bruise on her arm, or her slightly disheveled hair, she would be upset and unhappy with her appearance.
She has always craved to be liked, loved and accepted.
She's now 14 and is starting her first year as a freshman at high school. Though high school isn't going to be easy like it was for her popular, loud brothers.
Jealousy. Heartbreak. Bullies. Pressure. Judgement.
Adapting to a new change is hard. Bonnie can't quite take it, she gets overwhelmed, and her brain feels too 'busy'.
She can't help feeling what it would be like if she wasn't there or if she stayed silent, nobody would notice.
She doesn't crave to be a popular girl, or to be eye candy for the boys, she just wants to be known as 'pretty' and liked.
Her worst nightmare is to be known as the far girl, or the ugly one.
This need becomes overwhelming, and soon her body shuts down, and her mental health plummets.
She does some things, things she will regret in the future yet in the moment cures her need to feel alive, it brings satisfaction.
Will her older brothers be able to save her?
What happens when it all gets too much?
They might be able to save her from other people, but can they save her from herself?...
TW:
• Self harm
• Eating disorders ( Bulimia and Anorexia )
• Mentions of abuse and sa.
• Suicide.
(MATURE RATING)
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jemima xoxo
