Loaded Gun
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Last published Tue, Jun 5, 2018
They never tell you what happens after. They never tell you about the post traumatic stress that comes along with the loneliness and yearning to feel something again. Something so amazing. Something even better than what you thought could be the best you'd get. We all deserve a happy ending, but is that always what we need? Maybe one horrible experience will allow the right person to come in and save us. Save us from all of the hurt, stress, and anxiety. They never tell you how to know if they're the right one, I suppose that we just have to trust that person with the loaded gun that we call a heart. Sometimes, I wish he would've pulled the trigger.
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Clarke, a 5'2, 125 pound college freshman is looking for a fresh start. Recovering from her abusive ex boyfriend it seems like every step forward is three steps back, Clarke is on the edge of giving up until..
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WARNING: MAY HAVE TRIGGERS FOR THOSE DEALING WITH ABUSE OR SELF HARM/ ANOREXIA.
Story will not always be about these topics, but does involve them in the beginning.
Please, if you're dealing with anything or need someone to talk to, message me. I will try my best to help you.
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