How I Survive.
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Last published Sat, Apr 26, 2014
Everyone always thinks that depressed people looke gothic, or don't talk to anyone... But what happens when thats the mostwrong thing in the world and the most bubbly, friendly and life lovinge (or so it seems) person is the most depressed, suicidal and anxious girl you will ever meet. Well that's me. Hi im Chase WInters. I go to Lakewood high in a city called Chase Lake. The city's not that big but it is a city in all fainress. I am 15 years old and currently in my 4th year at Lakewood and, well, you already know, i am depressed, suicidal and extremley anxious, but im a damn good actress. The only person that knows about my conditions is my older brother who takes care of me, Luke. He doesn't understand how I can be severley depressed at home but at school i am the 'queen bee'. It's a good job Lakewood is a performing arts school isn't it? Ha. Well thats me... And this is my story, this is how i survive.
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