Man That You Fear (Marilyn Manson)
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"I thought of my memories of my precious daughter and my perfect wife and what they would feel in less than an hour. I wasn't worried for me...I was worried and sad for them, that I would have to leave them behind. Elise would not have a husband to support her anymore and she would have to take on the task of supporting Evangeline and a new baby soon enough. Evangeline would live the rest of her life with faint memories of me, nightmares of what was about to happen to her Daddy, the one who left her when she was barely old enough to take on all of it. The baby would never grow up with a father, it would never know him or be held by him. I wasn't being selfish in thinking any of this, but was only thinking of what they would have to endure...it wasn't how the family was supposed to be. The Stoning and every last person who supported it was responsible not only for the deaths of innocent people and many other countless things, but also of tearing apart a family, breaking what should be."
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