'At that moment something told me I felt something for him (but hadn't I always?). He said to me, "Just tell me to stay, and I'll stay.. If not, I'll leave you alone forever." I wanted to say 'Stay' but the word never left my lips. Tears are pouring out of both of our eyes. We look at each other for a moment, then I break the stare. I head towards the door and open it for him. I can't look at him. I just let him leave. I close the door behind me and I fall to the ground. I cry my eyes out. I'm hurting so much, but I feel like this is how I'm suppose to feel. I don't deserve happiness... Not anymore.'