Save Me From My life Please help Me please

My real Name is Nichole Amber Brianna Dunn this story is about me I started to cut when I was in grad e five I can like tell my best friend everything she is always there for me but my dad and my mom are devoiced I felt like I had no where to go but now I see I do have a home to live in but I don't have that many friends I'm very shy but its not my fault I'm shy I'm a dumb blonde but I take archery horse back ridding lessons and ect but one thing I miss and who I miss is my mom,dad,brothers,sisters,cousins,aunties,and Asjia she's my best friend