Struggling to Find Myself
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"You don't have to be or do something grand to spread the love of God. Anything you do, even in small doses can make a big difference in someone else's life" - Arielle Haber
I've graduated with my AA's, my family and I are moving to a new city and I'm struggling with my spiritual life. Everyone keeps asking what are you going to do, what are you going to major in and all I can say is I don't know, I'm trying to figure that out. But have I really been trying to? This is my struggle.
This book is based on actual thoughts, emotions and events happening in my life.
For obvious reasons, names of persons and places will be changed.
PS: I'd like to apologize in advance for late posting, since this is an actual journey of struggles I'm facing right now.
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